Dear God

June 22, 2009

I know that you can hear me. I’m sorry for the times that I had blamed you for the things that I should be blaming myself for. I’m so confuse right now. Please stay with me as I journey through this stage of my life. It’s not easy but I know everything will be alright since you promised that you will never leave me as I struggle with life’s uncertainties. You said that if its too heavy, you will give me rest.

I want to stay happy since there are a lot of things that I have to be thankful for. I have a happy family and lots of love coming from people around me. I just don’t know why I’m feeling this way, I feel down, small and nobody.

Please embrace me and make me feel secure in my life. Teach me to trust in you with all of my heart and show me the plans that you have for me.

Guide me in all the decisions that I make and let me see the things that cannot be seen by the eyes but by the heart. Please hold my hand and never let go, even If I come to the point that I am letting go. Forgive me for questioning you and being angry with you when things go wrong. Please make things right for me.

Thank you for being my bestfriend. I love you.

Please Don’t Add Up to the Burden

June 19, 2009

I am not at my best right now and I really need someone who will just listen and be there. I have done everything I can to be able to have the best situation but right now…I’m not at it. Please don’t tell me if you think I am wrong or right. It’s just my mind is in another place now and I just to have a rest for a while.

This has been to tiring for me. Even in the midst of confusion, I still have faith that God will be with me in this journey. I might feel alone but God has a reason why I need to pass through this thing right now. I might not know the message now, but the right time will come when everything will fall into place.

I’m just hanging on. Please if anyone would be able to read this, please pray for me that I may have a peace of mind and completely put my trust in him. He has never let me down ever since. I just don’t know why I’m feeling this way even if I know that God will never leave me every step of the way.

Maybe its human nature or maybe this is me…I know I am weak if its just me.

Help me Understand

There are things in my life right now that I really can’t understand. I even question myself why is this happening to me. It really confuses me a lot to think, if there is anything that I had done to make me deserve this. I really don’t get it. I’m not blaming anybody its’ just that I’m already confused.

I’m getting tired of thinking if I really deserve this. I can’t even sleep. What I am doing is talking to God like he is just in front of me asking him and telling him how drained I am from the pressures around me.

All I needed right now is someone to listen to me. Someone who will let me express the feelings that I have and not someone who would judge me. I know I might be thinking too much or too advance even.

For now, it is better to talk to someone who is not directly involve since I don’t want that those directly involve think that it is their fault why I am feeling this way.

My mind right now is really full of questions…especially the question Why? I hope in time I would be able to find the answers and if there is someone who is willing to listen, please leave a message here in my blog so I can talk to you and respond- if needed.

 

TIME FLIES SO FAST

June 7, 2009

It’s already June. It seems like it was just December 2008, and now it feels like it will be another Christmas within the next few months.

There was one person who came across my life that made me really think on the importance of time. I was asked, “If there is anything I can give to the person very special to me which will prove my love for that person, what would it be?” At first, I can’t think of anything that will be worth all the love that i want to express. Of course, I was able to give what I think is correct…… it was MY TIME.

What I mean is that the date and time today can never be repeated. Time is running faster than we expected, in one blink of an eye…everything special might pass us by.

Treasure every time that is given by God. It is very precious that its value cannot be explained and measure. Since nobody knows…when our time is really UP..